"I'm Stuntin like my daddy"

Well I'm going back to school! 12 weeks of searching culminates to nothing! Two interviews and no call backs. I knew this right, its a recession. childcare isn't exactly a profit running field(does that make sense) anyway. We have incredible opportunities that most individuals do not get because of my husbands time in the military. I feel like with everything thats happened now is the time to finish what I started years ago! God has blessed me in so many ways, even though we are struggling right now i will not look back. I can't what good is that. I'm blessed with a wonderful husband who loves me unconditionally and two kids who like me most of the time.......lol.

Associates degree here I come!

Ok so I was fired in May! Asked to resign! How humiliating! 8 years at that place. My boss and so call partner just sat there. How could she. Some of the bogus stuff they had on me came from her. I guess it was me or her, what would I have done? I'd like to think I would not roll over and die but I don't know. Ben has had it out for me for a while now. I think for the most part I don't look the part. I know I'm a little outspoken, stubborn, free spirit, and maybe a little rebellious but I gave 110% to that company. I've never been fire, well...... I've been fired for calling in in my younger days and denoted for my attitude when I was younger. come to think of it I've been let go quite a few times.........lol Oh well. I'm over it now and I know that God has a bigger plan. Whats funny is you think a place cannot run without you and the truth is they can. We are not God we are just people. Maybe we worship ourselves a little and God has to bring us down.....hmmmm Its a recession how will I ever find a job? More importantly how can I forgive them for what they did to me?

I am buying my first house in 2 weeks! I don't think you can even imagine how big of a deal this is! This is something that 5 years ago was only a distant dream and a hope. You have to understand that I was a teenage mom. Had my first kid at 16. A high school drop out! Had to go back and get my GED. By 2001 I was 23 I had two kids and no husband. Working for 7.00 bucks an hour. I could barely make ends meet. We didn't have food alot of the times. Thank God for Roman noodles or my kids would have literally been hungry sometimes. It was one of those situations where you make too much for welfare but yet to little to live.

To be where I am 7 years later with a great husband, two new vehicles, the head boss of my job that once paid me 7 dollars an hour, and now buying my first a house! Tell me ain't God good! I sit and cry and think of how blessed I am. If I can give anyone anything it would be hope! Hope that God saves! Hope that God heals! and Hope that God restores all that the cancker worm has eaten! Thank you Jesus!

The Story of Job

Chapter 1
Starts out telling us about a man who is blame less and upright. He fears the Lord. I would imagine if they had church back then he would be a man who goes to church more than just once a week, a man who pays his tithes faithfully cause the bible says he’s very blessed. Seven thousand sheep three thousand camels, and five hundred yoke of oxen. He had 10 children whom he’s raised in the admiration of the Lord. His kids are good kids. Yes, there rich kids but this isn’t Paris and Nicole these are very family oriented children. The Bible states the young men of the family like to have parties and invite there sisters. I would imagine these are not wild strip parties or anything like that cause you typically wouldn’t invite your sisters to things like that. So these are just a Sunday Bar-b-que type of thing. Job being the loving father and God fearing man that he was, would after each of these parties he would sacrifice an animal for each one of his children incase they had sinned in there hearts. Now this really blessed me right here cause even though there was no outward sign of sin Job understood the fact that “as a man thinketh in his heart so is he”, He understood that if you think about committing adultery you have already committed it!! He understood that if you gossiped about your neighbor at the company picnic last month then you murdered that persons spirit and/or character!! Which means you broke a commandment “though shalt not murder” so Job understood that while there were no outward signs of sin, there was still a possibility that his children could have sinned at some point during these parties so he would make sure to get there hearts back in right fellowship with God. So we know now that were talking about a man who loved his kids dearly and the first thing that the bible tells us Satan did was kill all 10 of his children!! Then he moved on the killing his animals and servants and so on and so on. Till we are at the point that it seems like he’s loosing everything. He has lost all his money,(everything he could have sold or traded is gone) he’s lost his ability to work, (no oxen left to ply the fields) and also his children were killed. How many of you know job is not having a good day at this point? But in the midst of all that in stead of running into town and taking a few hostages and killing them and then himself he falls to his knees and says, Bless God , naked with nothing I came into the world and Naked with nothing I shall leave.
What faith!! What a man of God!! Now I’m not saying Job wasn’t hurt, cause he was the Bible also states that he tore his robe and shaved his head like Brittney………..lol so obviously he was very distraught over the whole thing but the Bibles tells us be angry and sin not!!

So Job passed the first test you know with flying colors God was pleased Satan was not so of course Satan doing what he does best had to try again. Being faced with the second test which was more personable.

hello world,
My hudsband is back and that is great!! He has been on the road driving trucks with his father. The first three days he was gone I cried non stop. It felt like I was loosing my best friend. You have to undrestand my hudsband and I have only been together 2 years. So we are very much still in love and in the honey moon phase(i pray that never ends) Anyway just the thought of him beong gone was killing me. I had all these things I was gonna do before his return to keep my mind occupied. He was gone a total of 6 weeks although he would visit ever other week for a day or so. I did not get anything done. I did visit the gym once or twice but we did not get the whole trya banks figure going on like I had planned.......lol The seperation proved to be to much on both of us. So as I stated he is back and the quest is on for a job. He has two interviews tuesday so we will see how that goes. He has 3 years in on a teaching degree. He is just very confused on what is the best thing for him to do. He wants despaeartely to give me everything in life and so truck driving seemed the way to do that. I encourage him to go to school because he loves kids and he should follow his dream. To me love is more important than money.....although I am high maintainence. I thank God every day for him. My hudsband is so so so so so good to me I truly do not deserve him. But once again GOD IS GOOD!!

I got home at the usual time today 7pm. It was a little awkward cause I did not stop to pick up my daughter as I usually do. It's almost as if I had forgotten about her. I came home hopped on the computer and began to check my mail. After momentary lasp I called two doors down for my daughter. While on the phone with her aunt(who watches her after school)the last email I opened was from one of my son's 7th grade teachers. "Marcus' grade is now a 25 what are we going to do about this?" At that very moment my son arrived at his aunts house and she proceeds to send both of them home. I get off the phone to compose a strategy......lol My son came home and walked in talking about his football game that he played at 4:30 today. He played for 3 quarters and I was not able to attend. Unfortunately for me he was not even fazed, I have had to miss so many events due to my job he is used to it. I explain that I am pleased to know that his team won and subsequently there is no practice tomorrow. This is a good thing however what about these grades? It has been like pulling teeth to get him to admit he has homework much less do it. We immediately start pulling out pages of unorganized mess from his folder. Why is every subject in this folder together son? Of course this is a step up from last weeks work folded 7 times and put in his back pocket. The more papers I pull out with deadlines attached to them the more overwhelmed I felt. I went into the bathroom and began to almost break down. I felt so heavy and grieved but I had no tears. Have you ever felt that kind of heaviness. I began to call on Jesus, all I could think about was david in the psalms, and though I have read very few of them myself, I remember accounts when he was depressed and burdened down and God brought him out. I began to speak in tongues and think like david thought. I began to declare the word of God (the little I knew) My daughter would not leave me alone even in the bathroom so soon I had to get up and go back out and face the real world. Soon God brought an idea, get one of the many notebooks we have around the house and make a list of everything that is due for each subject. I began to write this down for my benefit . If he is going to get organized then I must first get organized. I whine a lot about the fact that I do not get home until 7pm. But really that is pointless cause I can;t do anything about that at the present. I have to maximize the time I do have. I have to get off the internet and the phone and focus on my kids. As I organized his papers he worked on homework. Soon I remembered a stapler that I have had (I kid you not for like 2 years and never took it out the package) I said "get that stapler" I stapled his work together organized it and emailed his teachers back of the progress we had made. Suddenly my spirit was lifted I can do this, I can control this impossible situation!! Jesus!! Thank you Jesus. I understand that there will be rough days but I can call on God for all things. He cares for me!! Thank you Jesus!!

Hello readers,

From 1995- 1997,I worked at a department store named Venture. While I worked there there was a spunky young lady named Angela that worked in the jewelry department. She was very energetic, fun to be around, very pretty, petite little blond. When we were on break together we would talk. Just mostly casual, I would not say that we were friends but she would tell me about her young son he was a very small infant. My son was 2 years old at that time so I would give her advice and just listen with her. She smiled a lot and all the ladies liked her. One night after work she went out as we all sometimes did to a local sports bar. It's not clear if she was alone there or not. The details are uncertain obviously as none of us were there, but at some point around 2am she left the club and only got up the rode about 5 miles before she fell asleep at the wheel and slammed her little bitty ford probe into a concrete divider. It flipped several times and landed upside down in the oncoming traffic lane. She was killed that night. It was very emotional for all of us who worked there because, it just hits home when it's someone you know. I lived not far from her (baby daddy's house) and often passed it on my way home. I would pray in tongues as I passed that house and ask God to be with that little boy and Bless him in spite of this tragedy. Even years later when I had moved from the neighbor hood if I passed that house I would think of him and pray. He was 7 months old when she died. And as usual for everyone else life went on. I kept the news clippings from the paper and continued to pray whenever it came to mind. I had no idea what impact this would have but it was what I was taught to do as a christian. In May of 2006I was at work. I work at a Private Christian school and daycare. I manage the daycare side but it is in a separate building from the kindergarten-sixth grade. On this particular day I was on the big kids side and I passed one of the many family posters that we have the children make and bring to school. They usually contain pictures of that child's parents and any special places the child has been. This particular poster had a picture of a toddler at a grave sight. I immediately stopped to investigate because who in there right mind would have a toddler in a stroller at a grave sight. (I mean is that really necessary, get a baby sitter or something) All these thoughts were running through my head so I stopped to see. The picture to the left of the grave sight photo was a picture of Angela-------. The original grave sight picture had a head stone visible that said Angela -------. AMAZING it was her!! The toddler who was in the stroller was her son visiting her grave. Why was this here? Who brought this? It soon became apparent that her son was a student at MY SCHOOL!! Could this be? 9 years later, the child that I prayed for, the child that I grieved for, the child I assumed I'd never see again. He was there!! A student at my christan school. I went on to learn that he was being raised by Angela's parents, and he has known nothing but christian education and the love of God his whole life. Was this due to my prayers? NO WAY!!. Who is God that he is mindful of me? I could only began to rejoice and thank God for keeping his word. If I had little faith before this was the miracle I needed to truly know that "If you ask any thing in my name I will surely give it to you says the Lord of Hosts"!! Amen